2 months ago
As sand through the hourglass....
Hello.
So the last time I was here was back in November.
December came and went. It was a hard month. My birthday is in December and it was the first one without my Tia. Christmas came. I applied to USC for my master's.
January, I received my letter of acceptance, completed orientation and financial aid... all in one month. Work was going well... not on the top of my game.
The rain came in February...so did my ignition for work. I think my sadness finally faded. I started my first course, a framing course. Four papers in four weeks.
Now here we are in March and my work life is a joke. I went on two major business trips and the CEO has not even asked for an update. The site is running... maybe my department is doing well and floating on... or maybe we are in trouble and he is holding information back.
Am I happy at work? I am with my job. I am with the clients. I am with my peers. Where is my boss? Who is he? That is problem. I so looked forward to fresh leadership and prosperity, however we have chaos and despair.
Sitting in a bookstore
Sitting at a table near three elders. They are talking about the times when they would sit in front of the TV store on Main Street and watch the world series through the window. They also spoke of taking bread, Bologna and cheese to the lake to go fishing. Popcorn, apples and home made fudge while listening to the radio. Jack Benny? They spoke of this time as the next gilded age. Talking about how everyone is hooked on computers, laptops and smart phones. Yet they are just as hip as the younger generation. Earlier that talked about how they no longer have a long distance service provider because they use their cell phone. They went on to talk about costumes... one saw a family dresses up as Lucille Ball and Desi Arnez. She described the outfit in detail. The "chunky" high heels, dainty cardigan, and long eye lashes. I love listening to stories. I know I'm eves dropping, but they were so intriguing, as they sipped on their coffee and reminisced over the past and discussed the present. However, not once did the conversation ever go to the future. Then, the gentleman got up to look for a book on diabetes. Delightful, that's how one of the ladies described this experience. They all know each other from church. I wish my grandma's had friends like these. People to hang with, that remember the good 'ol days and are living life in the now. They went on to talk about how they love bookstores, but it's hard to find a good book. So here I am. Sitting and typing, while my husband looks for books. I sit sipping on my coffee, typing and wondering if any of it matters, or will I be sitting in the bookstore talking about the good ol days of WiFi, mini computers and watching things on Hulu.
Life, Dia de los Muertos and our yard
Beauty of whatever kind, in it's supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears. - Poe
LAst two weeks in October
Last one to turn 30
Went to a surprise Birthday Party for a co-worker. The best part was that he did not have a clue. It was a full on surprise. Friday after work, wished him a happy 30 and I would see him on Monday. That night my husband and I, co-workers and his friends and family parked on an adjoining street, hid out in his house and surprise. Life is good. My hubby was great. I love watching him be the social butterfly that he is.
On the road... I need some Chicana time soon...
sometimes I just want to drive. A ice chest, snacks...
drive by and pick up my husband...
and drive
rive away, drive to a place where we can reinvent ourselvesa place where all is forgotten and new
jeans and hiking boots
gloves and scarfs
my cameras and sunglasses
I want to taste the wind, capture the light and hear life sing the soft song after a cool rain on her skin.
The world around us has changed. Think of it as a mandala. My husband and I are in the middle and all around there is shifting. It's hard because we have watched the shifts and kind of just took the batten down the hatches approach. We can not change what is in a natural motion of life for others, we can only be there for them. My cousin just went off for a second round ... air force. My other cousins came down for a dinner that I did not attend. Something told me not to. An aunt celebrated a 60th... not invited. I can't bring myself to take a painting my tia did to work... I brought it home after her death. I sits on an easel over my desk here at home. I can't take it in fear of crying. Dia de los Muertos is coming up.... no friends to help decorate... all have "things" in their lives. I'm a little frustrated.
Work .... work.... it's going great. We are being used as a flagship for an expansion of the company. I have 40 people "dropping" in next week... to see little 'ol me and my crew. Amazing.
so as always... here are some pictures, because in a time of isolation, frustration or loss... my clouds.
I can't wait to be my husband's date this Friday... I'm going to cha cha it up.
"Sheep" Fire
Here we are, driving along on Saturday no more then 5 minutes from home and I catch smoke out of the side of my eye... so I start snapping. 
Later that night while having dinner at my parents, you can see the glow from their back yard. The red light crawling up and over the mountain in the chill of the night.San Diego for Work
Had to go away on business. The meetings were great. I was able to pull a lot out of it, however I did miss my husband tremendously. I left on Tuesday Morning, 6:00 am to be exact and returned at 2:10 pm on Friday afternoon. By Thursday night, I was a little moody.
I missed him.
With every business trip comes the business dinners. Some better then others. My favorite was eating Ice Cream with my female co-workers around the outdoor fire place, listening to stories of marriage, children and life.
on the way home... YES!!!Route 66 and Bo Huff
Bo Huff
Rockabilly Route 66 Car Show
San Bernardino
September 19th
September 19th
Above"Joe's Ride"
abovea Bo Huff Creation
Below
Zombies
"Joe's Ride"
Above
"Joe's Ride"
Ran into El Ponk. She had a booth, bought a cute calavera skull.
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Route 66
Route 66
SanBernardino
September 18, 2009
Funny... a twitter came up and asked... "what do you do to relax?" I replied that I take photos and blog. Funny... because we don't watch TV... heck we don't even have cable... but the net... must have the net.
Fall
Fall is here. Well as much as fall as So Cal will allow. It 9:49 pm and it's about 79 degrees outside. How can I tell it's fall....my husband and I walked through Micheal's craft store today... I wanted to buy it all! Then we went into World Market.... sigh. I Love the fall.
Questions?
Hhousewarming party... with a 50/50 raffle. Smoke from the station fire drifting in.My family is growing. My extended family. I feel disconnected from them . Not so much my mother's side. We grow closer through of all things.... Facebook. Her family stretches from Washington down to Arizona all the way across to Maine. It's a huge family. I always describe that side as the tower of Babel. My fathers side. That is were I see the change. We are all going on with our lives. The family parties and BBQ's are becoming a thing of the past. Either the "cousins" are moving on with significant others or off in the college world. It might just be our time of growth or the new direction only to cross at major events. It's funny. There are only four children between my Grandparents, yet they all turned out so different. The Grandchildren... well sometimes you would not even know we were related. I'm finding myself looking towards my second cousins for connections. It's an interesting progression of life to watch. I would like to document the changes through pictures, however my drive to find beauty in allof it is sometimes stifled by the awkwardness of it all. Of course there is more I need to say, but can't seem to put it into words.
am I rambling? I think I am.
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