Poli, poli, di umbuendo"
(Slowly, Slowly we will get there.)


"Nullum magnum ingenium sine mixtura dementiae"
(There is no one great ability without a mixture of madness)


and last but not least.........


Quidquid latine dictum sit, altum videtur
(Anything said in Latin sounds profound.)

It's raining again.

I had to go to a meeting today. My assistant came up and asked if everything was set for the day... did I leave a list of plans for her to follow... "Follow, plans, What the F*ck?" Oh dang it!!!! I have a meeting TODAY!!!! I had to change gears and run to our central office. I was such a mess. I put the meeting on the calendar for Thursday. I get to the meeting and low and behold... what a waste of time. We wrote a proposal to change a major document.... oh wow. that took a whole 10 min. We could not change anything till the rest of the departments in our field gave input. The head "hancho" at the Central office was dumb founded. Yes we run our unit in a democratic way...that's why we are so successful. Either way I wasted my time. I was able to get some other "non meeting" related bushiness done at the central office.... so that was an upside. I ended up leaving at 2:00 for home.. which was a treat for me.

This is how I felt last night. Lucy said she felt like I changed when I met my husband. She did not like it. She was upset because he had taken a lot of time away from her and I. I guess I feel like that now. Her new job and boyfriend have taken her away. Very different circumstances, never the less, it has happened. I don't know where to start. After I got off the phone with her I burst into tears. My husband hug me and asked what was wrong. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I was upset. Upset with how her boyfriend handles their relationship in the workplace, upset with the life her daughter has, upset for not having a bigger house and more money to help her kids out more, upset I don't have more time for them. I was upset. The problem is that being upset does not help anything. It's just an emotional drain on my life. I need to do something, but I don't know what to do. I'm not crazy about this guy of hers. Each time we talk, she tells me one more thing about him that is not so .... "Wow". He was in an accident, and lied to her job about her being there. This was so that she to could get the day off with him to "nurture" him. Second, he as an ex- fiancee that is married and preggers that gets her cake and eats it too. Her husband and he vie for her attention. Thirdly he told the clients at work they were dating. This is not good. It jeopardizes her position at work and puts restrictions on who she can do businesses with. Her daughter is angry. I can see why... Lucy is trying her best... She was on her own, ex husband piece of crap did not help her, her mom drove her crazy and she pulled it together. She is a very strong woman... but I see a weak spot in the wall. I'm afraid the dam will burst. Not today, not next week, but in time...