C. S. Lewis:
The future is something which everyone reaches at the rate of sixty minutes an hour, whatever he does, whoever he is.

where are you?


Let me try to explain... since you don't know what's wrong. Change. I have changed. You said that during the toast at my wedding. You did not like it at first. You said it was because you did not understand it. You learned it was love and that I did not change. I just became a better person then I was. You said you wanted to feel that. You wanted that love in your life too.
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Well now I say... "you have changed" but you left one daughter behind. You jumped into a relationship so fast I never saw it coming. I jumped into my relationship fast too. However I did not have small children and an ex husband in tow. I have thought about you this summer off and on. But when I do, you make me mad, sad and fustrated. Do you even know how many times I have cried after we got off the phone. I can't do it anymore. I wish I could yell at you and ask you "what are you doing?!?" ... " why are you doing this?" "She's fucking 11 years old and your treating her like she is our age". ... but I can't, because I already hung up the phone and said good bye.
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No matter what you do, you will always be my friend, however I will carry this friendship and love on, not with you, but with your daughter. I was never able to save you. But I can stay around and help you daughter. Make sure she has her needs met. I miss you.
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I wish you all happiness in the world. I 've lost two friends this summer. One after 9 years and the other after 19 years. Time will tell what the next chapter is in our lives. We have been separated before and came back even stronger.
We will see.