out of focus

I took this picture 7 days ago. Beautiful, but out of focus. Like my life. Today I think I went through the final phase of being unhappy due to the loss of my dogs. I was able to say their names multiple times with out crying. I want to put my life back into focus. I have gained some of my lost weight back, fallen behind on house work, artwork and other chores and passions. I need to focus.