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Story time ...

About two weeks ago I dreamt that I was in a supermarket. It was the freezer section. I was browsing through when I ran into my Mom and my Uncle "Jose". They did not know how to pick crab meat. They looked and looked and did not know what a good cut look like ( I know... sounds like steak) and they did not know when it was ripe for harvesting. Then they came to a vein, similar to those you find in the mountains containing gold. The vein was a actually crab meat, and they went back and forth debating whether it was rip or not. The whole time I stood there watching. My mom with an aura of innocent and cuteness, my uncle with the aura of "I know it all" ... then at that moment, my tia came from behind and said " just tell them that's that right one". So I did.

Story time ...

The moment we were getting ready to leave the house I knew I forgot something. My laptop. She would need my lap top for something. The net, that's it. She wanted me to set up an account of some type. The problem is she never asked for it and we were running a little late. I grabbed my purse and and threw the box of UNO cards in it for my baby brother. Off we went. Purse, check, Vanilla for the peanut butter cookies, check. Laptop, no I left it behind... not high on me priority list. We arrived at my parents house. She was there. She talked of her impending divorce while my husband took the children into the music room to play UNO. She asked how one could set up a new account ... an e-mail account. I laughed. I knew I should of brought the laptop. I knew she would ask for tech help. I need to start listening to myself more often.

Herb Alpert and the Swap Meet

We have not been to the swap meet in years... this one is located in San Bernardino at the NOS Fair Grounds. Every month or so, I tell my husband... we should go... but by the time I remember to make that statement it's way after noon and the good stuff is gone, they are packing up and it's a wash. However, last night I planned it. Down to the water bottle and bag (thanks mom for the bag). The bag is small enough to fit into a purse, undo one button and wa-la... a shopping bag perfect enough in size to fit 5 Records, three comic books and a book.




The mission was to find something to hold all my magazines next to our bed. I have Time, RS and Popular Photography subscriptions that I love to read in bed. Right now they are in three piles on the floor next to the bed. It started to heat up and the I was "glowing" like crazy. What aisle to start at? So there we went... on our mission.

and the journey begins...

Down a side aisle, we were walking and talking and I found the greatest little pin. It had two owls... I saw it in the midst of other little pins and costume jewelry. I think I'll make a charm out of it and use it in a necklace project.




So in the end and $15.00's later this was our bounty;


  • 5 records including Herb Alpert's Tijuana Brass - Whipped Cream and other Delights - A taste of Honey, Tangerine, Love Potion #9, Lemon Tree, Lollipops and Roses, and Peanuts.

  • My magazine rack - three separate slots, wrought iron... ready for a fresh coat of paint

  • The owl pin

  • Three comic books (yes I love comics)

  • A great summer book, The hot house: life inside Leavenworth Prison by Pete Earley

  • A giant blow up Negra Modelo Beer bottle, for my husbands Man Room

  • and a Sierra Mist (the most expensive over priced item of the bunch)

title: A few days off


I have the rest of the week off. No work.

The bee man came and took care of our hive.

What we thought would take all day only took 1/2 an hour.



Going out to eat with some friends tonight.



My husband took the day off ( to meet with the bee man) and now is taking a nap. I'm rearranging and sorting trough all the files on my lap top. I hate clutter in my virtual file folders.



Came across the photos I used in the memorial DVD.


I realized she is never coming back. My heart is broken. What happend? She was just here. Where was I? I mean I was right there. It's like I can go up the mountain and she'll be there. I know I had mini break downs... but she is gone. I finally realized she is gone.

Time Lapse...





It was all a blur. My mom posted something similar. Time, what was it, what shaped it and did it even stay consistent?

In order to try to understand I actually had to take out a calendar for this post. I was so confused and turned around that I felt lost. I really needed to lay it out in order to not only find myself, but to get back on track. Even though I am back at work and making sure my husband has a good birthday weekend, I still feel a little disorientated.

May 24th - Went to visit my tia.

May 25th

May 26th
May 27th

May 28th - she "entered" hospice at home. I canceled an event for June 4th. I rescheduled it for June 9th. I took a little heat for it, but I just needed to cancel.

May 29th - I took the day off in order to see a doctor. I felt sick and wanted to get better or they would not let me see her. I never miss work. I have over 3 months in sick leave, but this was important.

May 30th - sick
May 31st - sick
June 1st - sick, went to work.

June 2nd - I scheduled a day off for Thursday the 4th while at work. Mother called at 10:30 pm...I took her up the mountain to my tia.

June 3rd- Came down the mountain at 3:00 am, went home took a power nap and went to work at 7:00 am. Was told my office may move, I may lose another co worker and conducted interviews. I went home early. Lightning and thunder. Wanted to go up the mountain. Little brother needed me. Stayed and my husband and I went over. She passed at 4:45 pm.

June 4th - took day off. Slept. I was running on 3 hours of sleep. I have no idea how my mother did it. I woke up. My husband had gone to work. I was in the house. What had happened? I got to work on my computer. Scanning photographs, looking through old albums and getting my event squared away for the 9th.

June 5- a day, went to work.

June 6 - yesterday
June 7 - today


Tomorrow is another day...
Tomorrow is a birthday.